Different Strokes

When I got pregnant again, I totally thought I knew what was going to happen. I was pretty anxious about it, actually. First trimester with Skyler I was pretty sick.. so much so that I took Zofran to ease the nausea until 13-14 weeks. Along with that I had pretty bad (excuse my bluntness) .. constipation. Many pregnant women know these symptoms well. I was worried that I would be on my back watching Skyler for about three months. Shockingly this was not the case. I did have a little nausea but nothing to write home about. And I really only felt it at night. It subsided by 12 weeks.

I have found that not only with the nausea has this pregnancy been different that Skyler's but in other ways as well. I didn't have the cramping scare that I did in the beginning with Skyler, I haven't gained a single pound yet (although, I am about 10 pounds heavier this time around...hehe), and my jaw has been giving me trouble this time.

It's a good reminder for me as I look towards the future. This next little one will be completely different than Skyler. He/She will most likely have different likes/dislikes and require different things from me. One thing I am looking foward to is giving breastfeeding another shot. After I said a mournful goodbye to it with Skyler, I was determined to make it work this time around. I am trying not to put too much pressure on myself as I think this can be a really evil cycle in the whole anxiety process. I am also looking foward to holding an itty bitty again. With my postpartum, I didn't have the desire to cuddle and hold Skyler. I also stressed about sleeping so I made it a goal for him to fall asleep by himself at night and I can only remember a handful of times that I let him sleep on me. Other family members enjoyed it but I was a little anxious to enjoy these little moments. I hope that this time around I am able to cherish the sleepy times and not worry about it so much. :) I pray often that I will be bonded with with my new little one.

I also thank God for the times I had with Skyler. I have learned so much about being a mommy from him. I know it will be an adjustment for all of us, but I think mostly for Skler as he goes from being an only child to a brother. I hope he will embrace his new sibling--unfortunatly this will probably be a "uh oh buddy, too tight!" embrace :) hehe. You can only expect so much from a toddler!!

Well that is all my reflections and thoughts for the night. :)

Have a good one!